Not So Merry

So yes, its been quite some time since I have visited my site. I have been terribly busy with school and work and a neglectful friend at the very least. All of these stops on my road have yielded no positive returns however. I rue the decision to continue on full-time at school and it seems to me like time is moving a lightning speed and I feel so mildly accomplished. Its poignantly clear that there are many flaws in my spectrum; however unfortunate that I manage to reveal them on an almost consistent basis. I really wonder why it is that I am perpetually dissatsified with myself and my performance in my position in life. Its not that I am belaboring any moot point because typically I am a forger making my way through basically anything however lately I can barely manage to make my way from the bed each day with little more than a minute to spare before I hurdle my way out the door to an almost depressing exhistance that the psuedo "ivory tower" where overpaid over-zealous assistants torture me and relent about the service, and produce little. I am at a constant beckon to which I am always prevailing at to no paramount. I feel very dissastified with basically everything in my life at this point in time and I believe strongly that I need a seriously life-changing event to occur otherwise I will leave this country and never come back. Now that I have my new villa in escrow.